Tumblring from my phone sucks. You know what else sucks? Everything. I honestly cannot stand life without my laptop. It gives me too much time with my own thoughts and feelings and I just can’t deal. I end up realizing how I really only have one friend, and she lives in Texas. Everyone else I know is so unreal to me in that I feel I put on a different facade when I’m with them. I also end up realizing how stuck I am. I’m never going to reach my full potential. Things keep holding me back. And most of the time it’s me. I was really excited to apply to this Vassar summer program and that was practically yanked out from under me. That was supposed to change my life. Now I’m terrified I’ll be stuck here forever. Here in an apartment in Queens with my crazy mother and my laptop.